And say: “How I have hated instruction, and my heart despised correction! I have not obeyed the voice of my teachers, nor inclined my ear to those who instructed me! I was on the verge of total ruin, In the midst of the assembly and congregation.” Proverbs 5:12-14
Proverbs 5:7-20 discuss what happens with you throw Wisdom aside and follow after the "strange, foreign woman"—the one who leads a you away from Wisdom. In the middle of these verses we find Proverbs 5:12-14.
Instruction: discipline, chastening, correction
Heart: mind, will
Despised: abhor, treat with contempt
Correction: reproof, chiding
Obeyed: hear, absolute be obedient, "do obey"
Voice: thing said, often of advice, command, entreaty
Teachers: archer who shoots straight, aiming toward the bullseye
Inclined: especially incline (bend toward) the ear, of men (in obedience to God)
Ear: attention, listen
Instructed: to exercise in, learn
On the verge: within a little, almost
Total ruin: evil, distress, adversity
Assembly: properly company assembled together by appointment, or acting concertedly (planned or devised together)
Congregation: assembly specially convoked: for evil counsel
How did I get here? That is often the question when we find ourselves in bad situations. How did I get here? I don't belong. I am miserable. I have NO right be to here.
How did I get here? It all begins with those hating discipline and despising correction. Once you say, "NO!" to Wisdom it is followed by disobedience, ignoring all that you've been taught.... and soon you find yourself in a situation surrounded by evil, distress, adversity asking the question: "How did I get here?"
How did I get here? It's was based on a choice you made. A decision to treat wisdom with contempt and choose to join those that love evil. It's not by happenstance that you find yourself in the middle of people who provide evil council—rather it's PLANNED. I didn't "plan" to end up HERE! Well when you abhor Wisdom—where did you think find yourself?
How did I get here? If you find yourself asking that question, then the first thing you need to do is turn to God and ask forgiveness.
If you want to keep from having to ask yourself "How did I get here?" then you need to make sure that your heart is permeated with a deep sense of reverence for God (Acts 9:31 MSG). For when you fear God, you are open and willing to hear and obey His Wisdom.