Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Acting like a 2-year-old

I've said before that I'm not a good "waiter". I take a LONG time to make a decision, but once the decision is made, I want to go FULL-STEAM ahead. But God continues to teach me, that I have much to learn during the "waiting times." 

I've been talking with my Heavenly Father about moving South for years. Before my sister got sick, I had thought maybe I was to move to Macon to be near her and my parents. However, I was in the midst of surgeries and procedures here, so moving at that time just didn't make sense. 
Then after my sister died, Mom and Dad moved back to Florida. So, I continued praying about if and when I should move to Florida. However, God just didn't give me peace about it. 

Then after my last surgery in April of 2013, and some of the decisions regarding my pain and what could be done.... God started to prepare me for moving. After discussing it with a dear friend, just to make sure I was thinking clearly, and more prayer, I knew that it was now time to move. 

So, once that decision was made, I started working on where. Once that was decided, I then proceeded with the application process.... and waiting. 
I want to move NOW.... yet, I know that I have many things to that need to be taken care of BEFORE I can move. God is allowing this waiting time, so that I can accomplish tasks at a "slower-rate" so that I can handle the increase in pain. 

I know WHY I'm not moving THIS SECOND... but there is still part of me that wants to do it NOW. Sounds like a 2-year-old, I know... but that's how I feel. 

I'm so thankful that God has a PERFECT plan and that He is working out all the specifics as to where the exact apartment will be, and the exact date of the move. My responsibility is to do what I can each day to prepare for the move and the save as much money as possible to pay for move and the expenses associated with the move. 

I'm praying that I'll learn while "waiting" and that I won't rush ahead of God. For His timing is always the best. Very thankful that God is patient and knows that at times I act like a 2-year-old.... but He knows exactly how to handle a 2-year-old.... so I'm in very good hands.